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Ma chère Nathalie

How do you say goodbye to your best friend?  Goodbye as in, really goodbye.

 

You passed away this last summer.  July.  While I was at Lake Powell.  On vacation.  You fought cancer.  Stupid cancer.

 

I didn’t go to the funeral.  I live in Denver.  You lived in Montréal.  And I was at Lake Powell.  It was complicated.

 

Best friends.  We met when we were 8 years old.  3rd grade.   We stayed close despite the physical distance between us.

 

You gave me the best gift a friend can give.  You shared the Gospel of Jesus Christ with me.  I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints because you loved me so much, you had to share.  And I prayed about it.  It was right for me too.

 

I went to Montréal in September.  I went to the cemetery to see your grave site.  I didn’t feel your presence there.  Nothing at all.  I didn’t feel like taking a picture.

 

 

I went to the site of the school where we met.  The school burned down several yeas ago.  They built a beautiful park.

 

 

I sat on the swings.  I felt your presence.  Very strongly.  I miss you so much.  You have blessed my life with your fun sense of humor and friendship. I think you were a much better friend to me than I was to you.

 

Looking up at you.  Thanks for coming to me in a dream.  It made me so happy.  I know you’re happy up there.  Blessing more people with your love.

Thanks for supporting my photography hobby.  Thanks for believing in me.  Now all I have are those great pictures of you.  Wish I had taken more.  Won’t share the one with you and the perm that just wasn’t the best “do”.

So glad I have those pictures.

They make my heart happy.

God be with you ’till we meet again.  Je t’aime beaucoup ma belle.  Merci d’avoir été une si bonne amie.

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